Wednesday, July 16, 2008

'cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life....

a couple of days ago a friend of mine's status on facebook said..."i'm thankful that good friends are still good friends." or something to that affect. there is something about a good friendship...one where you can go months or even years without talking, but when you're together again, you just pick up where you left off. i am so thankful for these kinds of friendships.
this past month has been filled with the bittersweet. from vacationing with good friends overlapped with the loss of a loved one, to a going away party for my best friend. i have had to think a lot about friends and how important they are in my life. as i get older i realize more and more my need to be surrounded by people who know me, really know me and love me anyway. it's such a comforting feeling to sit in a room with a dear friend and know that you don't even have to talk, you can just be.

meeting up, in san diego, with some great friends that i hadn't seen in over a year was a time of sweet fellowship and bitter loss. what began as a fun week of hanging out and catching up came to a crashing halt as we lost an AMAZING father...husband...friend to a fight with cancer. though sometimes i question God's timing and plan...i have to giggle when i imagine Leon worshipping his Father any way he wants to without the little old biddy's telling him how it should be done. and even amidst this heartbreaking loss...i felt blessed to be among people who truly know me and the comfort that it brings.

following that emotional roller coaster, i celebrated with friends and family as we sent my cousin Jessica out on her new adventure. as i'm writing this...she is spending her first day in her new home...south asia. she has said "yes" and given her life for something far greater than i can imagine. i'm so proud of her and i'm thankful that ours is a friendship that won't be gone in an "mmmbop" (see post from may 30th). Jess and i have said "goodbye" several times over the years, but we have been blessed to have lived in the same town, in the same house for the past three. ours is a friendship that picks up where it left off and i look forward to the time when our paths cross again...Thailand maybe!

there have been sweet moments of quality time overshadowed by grief. this has left me feeling emotionally spent and tired. so, i am choosing to remember and to reflect on the fond memories, rather than the sad and dreary.

Gerri and i at seaport village in san diego, california

me, Rachel and Beth

the girls might kill me for posting this picture...(left to right) Jessica, Mandy, Ang, Christi, and me. if you remember the show kids incorporated...this was our interpretation.


Ang, me and Jess last christmas!


it's a rainbow of fruit flavors....this picture was taken at Jess' party (the thrillah' in Zillah). i didn't make into the rainbow because i was wearing black that day.